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[velocette]

[He's been mulling this over since he met Hannibal, really.]

What was the first turning point in your life? Do you even remember who your real heroes were, when you were a kid? Or maybe some people do actually idolize their parents. For me, the only idols are the ones who can't become real, but it's been pointed out to me before that it's possible to worship someone in spite of their faults.

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[velocette]

Don't they all have support here? People with like minds, at the very least their own Warden?

[bodilesswarrior]

Once they get one, sure. But some people don't know how to accept it. It can be hard, if you've never had it before.

[velocette]

Because of the fear of losing it?

[Philosophy he grasps easily, but basic relationship dynamics are a foreign concept. He looks like he would dissect it with a scalpel and tweezers if it was physical enough.]

[bodilesswarrior]

That, and... [A faint frown, as she considers.] Opening up, letting people in - if you've never done it, you need to learn how.

[velocette]

The problem is you let people in by being honest. But some types of honesty just scares people off.

[bodilesswarrior]

That's a big part of it, yeah. [A sudden, wry smile.] Real, emotional honesty can still - I'm not quite used to it.

[velocette]

Yeah. Yeah, me neither. Can take a punch, can take worse than that, but it's the emotional scars that form us. I guess craving control makes it worse...you'd be handing off the sculpting of your mind to another person.

[bodilesswarrior]

[Barbara just stares, for a moment, before pushing down a bizarre urge to laugh her guts out.]

Yeah. Yeah, that's it exactly.

[velocette]

[He can see something in her expression and doesn't quite know how to read it--he's used to derision or confusion or, occasionally, revulsion. This is...nice.]

Are you happy with who you've made yourself into?

[bodilesswarrior]

Usually. [Now more than ever, really.] The Barge helped me with that.

How about you?

[velocette]

Mm, I haven't really figured out who I'm making myself into. I just know the things I'm not.

[He chuckles] Which probably doesn't inspire much confidence in what I'm doing with my inmate...

[bodilesswarrior]

Honestly? I figure the Barge teaches the Wardens about as much as it teaches the Inmates. Maybe that's why we're asked.

[velocette]

What'd it teach you?

[bodilesswarrior]

[Her brow furrows, for a moment, as she considers.]

That it's all right to just be Barbara, and that she's still there under the mask.

[A sudden smile, slight and sharp.]

That vengeance isn't always wrong.