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[velocette]

[As usual, he's smoking. And it's not unusual that he's staring at the smoke like he's been hypnotized, but he's smiling more than he has in the years he's been on board.]

You know, I've been so fixated on these things for so many years. On cigarettes, I mean, Kools if I could get them--and it's funny that these are the greyest thing in my life. The single thing that lacks color now. I sort of expected the smoke to be blue...or pink.

I actually stopped seeing color when I was four. I think that was when I stopped believing in God, Santa, and the American Dream. I assumed for a long time that everyone went colorblind (literally, figuratively, whichever) when they got old enough to be cynical. But I came here and I met a real muse, and I've realized that I was mostly wrong.

I wonder what the rest of you lost when you stopped being kids? I don't expect many of you will answer, since most of you are understandably very sensitive about your pasts, but it's a real question. What did you lose when you grew up?

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[whatthewrackspurt]

I think it was when my mother died. Those sorts of things tend to change you as a person.

I'm sorry about your sight.

[routemistress]

Nothing to lose but me chains, Piper my darling. Figuratively speaking, any road.

D'you know what my name means?

[BRB in the lab formulating rainbow tobacco.]

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[walkthedarkpath]

I had no idea you were colorblind. I am curious as to how different the world must be for you.

And fair is fair, for the question I return the answer to yours, I lost my heart. [ he likes you Piper, that's why you get points most don't, short of Sylvanas, Kara and maybe Bleu.]

[strangehistorian]

Oh, I am sorry. I didn't know.

[150th]

I did not have a childhood.

Many species can walk as soon as they are born. The long protective period that humans give to their offspring is not so common.

[sharpsurprise]

Fear, I think. I was very afraid as a child, and when I grew up I learned that I didn't have to be.

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[punched_hitler]

Now? [You said now, does that mean something's changed?]

I don't know that I lost anything, honestly. Some days I still don't feel very grown up. Are you sure you've got to lose something, to do it?

[ichoosefight]

A whole lot of fear and anger.

[ She still has them, of course. Mostly she's just gained mechanisms for coping with them effectively. ]

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[bodilesswarrior]

I don't think it's quite so clear-cut for most people. It's more gradual, even if there are - leaps.

[spam]

[rhapsody_in]

[Bleu sidles up to him, looping her arm with his and reaching out her hand for the cigarette.]

Why'd you stop believing? I'm not saying they're real, of course, but four is young to become so skeptical.

[A long pause, and then she adds something.] I wanted to tell you something earlier, but I didn't want you to think I said it rashly.